when we first met, i had no idea you'd be so important to me.

You know when you see something or read something that just makes your heart sink? I hate that. Its always just one of those "shit happens" kinda things. Nothing you can do about it. Your friends would rather meet up without you. Some guy you're into is seeing someone else. Someone is being a general twat. Well guess what FUCK YOU ALL. Coz sometimes you read some shit that does completely the opposite.

My life is literally amazing right now. I feel like in the last month, everything has changed. Every single thing about my life is completely different. And I love it. This new thing is the best. When you are just honest with yourself, and admit some shit to people its so much better. Secrets are overrated. Yeah, sometimes they are necessary, because people will get hurt by the truth, or it will complicate things. But getting stuff off your shoulders sometimes is so good.

All the new people in my life are amazing. I could no longer imagine my life without them. I wouldn't even be me anymore. I would be like. LOST. But sometimes one person walks into your life and just . . oh my fuck I can't explain it! They just make everything make sense. Sometimes, you just click and life is just perfect and . . I have tried to explain this so many times. We can't even explain it. I just . . GOODNESS. My love is beyond explanation. Its perfect. I Love You *blows kiss*

I am like this big bundle of happy smileyness. And yeah, my head is full of fucked up shit that makes me want to scream at people and slam my face into a wall. But in general, I can't remember ever being this happy. Someone. Fucking. Gets. Me.
Being Beth right now is amazing. 

Just tonight I will stay, and we'll throw it all away ♥