I'm really struggling to get into this blogging thing. I don't really know how to do it. I just have all these weird "brain farts" that no one else really should hear about. I even think I'm scared of it. I really don't want anyone to read it, well not anyone I know anywhoo! But fuck it. Life goes on . .
So it seems that a hell of a lot has changed recently; friends, college etc. I have never really been very good with friends. For the first 11 years of my life, I pretty much just had 2 friends. The next 5, I did whatever I had to do, and was whoever I needed to be to fit it. And now, I don't really know what I'm doing. I think I'm just coasting. There are lots of people who I class as my "friend", but I'm last on peoples list . . just a thought at the end "should we invite Beth?". Most of the time they don't bother. I'm a bit boring, and never really have anything to contribute. That's probably why I am so socially challenged.
Basically I am a twat.
And it is because of this fact that I am failing at college. Without sounding like a big headed asshole, I have always been quite naturally clever. That is how I got through school, and GCSEs without doing any work or revision. Turns out you can't do that at A level. If you are lazy, you just fail, and I am lazy.
I am trying to keep my "brain farts" slightly under control. I'm doing my best not to lose it completely because half the stuff I really want to say, I know I really shouldn't. To anyone. Ever. My mind is a bit of a mess right now. It has been for bloody ages actually. I think its because I don't really live my life in the right order. I would put it down to experience, but I don't tend to learn from my mistakes . .
Good effort Beth. But try harder.
"I'm just out to find the better part of me"
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