We're going through changes.

Sometimes, when everything is just shit, you just have to make a decision and go with it. It might not be the right one and you might make a mistake, but at least you can say you tried, and you may regret it, but at least you won't always be wondering 'what if'.

I am a mug, and a pushover. People treat me pretty badly, and I let them. It's not that I can take being hurt more than anyone else, I just feel like being happy for a little bit is worth it. I think maybe I have built up a little tollerance to it. I don't think I notice it, I just let it affect me without even realising.

Taking control of it is scary. You run the risk of being unhappy, even if just for a little bit. But it's important, because you're taking control for a reason and you're making things right. And it will get better, because it can't get worse. You're making a change because you aren't completely happy, and things won't get better if they stay exactly the same.

Take a risk. Close your eyes. Jump.

It's the most beautiful pain in the world, I love how it hurts.